Afraid..

Afraid of rehab;

More afraid of drugs.

Afraid of going home;

More afraid I won’t.

Afraid of comfort;

More afraid of empty hugs.

Afraid of hiding;

More afraid of being shown.

Afraid of living;

More afraid of dying.

Afraid of smiling;

More afraid of crying.

I’m one of those people

Whose lives are ruled by fear.

So for me, give a smile,

But for me, shed a tear.

Only so much life can be lived afraid.

Just like only so much life can be lived in hate.

Strong on my heart is what I learn here.

I’ll take it into the world & hold it dear.

My goal is to get sober, stay clean.

Regardless of what lies in my genes.

Unlike my parents? Count me in!

Though to hell & back is where I’ve been.

Home safe, clean, and sober

Until my life is done & over.