Make your decision..

The shadows are always him - coming to take what never should have been his. 
The smirks are always her - laughing me into a deeper level of humility. 
The glares are always them - rejecting the girl they once thought worthy enough to call their own.


So now, the man of my dreams must be extra understanding when his touch causes me to break down. Our unborn children may be less because making love is more of a task for me. The dark nights will bring my weeping about and hopefully my future husband will understand why his wife is a little girl.


My children will not learn their self-esteem from me, for I look down when I walk. My eyes stay glued to the sidewalk because she warned me never to make eye contact. Obedience will prevail over assertiveness. My poor children will be pushovers with no backbone, just like their mother. 


My late family will always ere on the side of caution due to fear of rejection. Acceptance will be our biggest value, our highest achievement. We will all be..... 


Unless I surrender my life to God right this moment and change my future, we will be what I described above. That is not what I want. We will all be... 

God-fearing,

The man of my dreams will understand how much I love him when he touches me because my fears will have been defeated. We will have plenty of children because making love to my husband will be nothing less than glorious. The dark nights will bring about faith when I pray to Jesus and tell Satan to leave me alone. My future husband will understand why his wife is a survivor. 

My children will value themselves and find their worth in their Father, for we are not worthy of His love but He loves us anyway. We will look people in the eye to show that we have confidence in ourselves. Assertiveness will prevail because we want what's best for everyone, including ourselves. My beautiful children will be successful and happy, just like their mother. 


My late family will take risks because we will not fear rejection. Acceptance will be valued, but God comes first. Pleasing Him will be our biggest achievement.

It all changes from my one decision. I'm making it now.