Pappers, this one's for you..

I lost my grandfather to a fatal blow known as family disowning. Now, to be clear, he didn't disown me & I didn't disown him. Due to others in the situation, our only hope was and is to let go of each other for now, praying that things would somehow come together in the future - hoping that God would work things out, if it be His will. Things haven't worked out yet but I've met a man that resembles my grandfather so closely that it brings back even the most packed away memories. I've tried to forget them so leaving him for now wouldn't be so painfully heart-wrenching. I will NEVER forget him. It's sad losing someone you love to other's immaturity. I love you, Pappers<3


Gray hair, wrinkle lines.
Just like most older guys.
But there's something special about you and him
That distinguishes ya'll from them.


Sweet memories sweep in,
Washing away old sins.
All betrayal forgotten at once, 
And replaced with unending love.


Jokes at all occasions.
I saw a few of many faces - 
Grandfather, most often.
Gentle and softened. 
Hands of a laborer
Turn caring as the Savior's.
Make the bad disappear,                                      
Disintegrating all my fears.                                


Only with you I've found
A few moments safe and sound.
But now you're gone - only visions left.
You slow yourself when I've slept.


You left me with a goal in mind.
To me, it will never be justified.
To disown your own blood clearly to a lie.
And for me to watch your life pass me by.


At least there are those who bring back the good.
Although I've tried to forget you, I never could.




(This photo was found on superstock.com. This is neither me, nor my grandfather.)